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i wonder if there is such a thing as overblogging but i feel a need to pour out these particular thoughts.
in the age of perfection when skinny is beautiful and overweight(notice my non-usage of the word 'fat') is not, I think perhaps that man has returned to its early self. but i would not make this an abstract admission of what i feel to be quite cruel indeed, instead i shall say exactly what i feel. this is afterall my blog.
i never felt the words 'you're fat' cut me as deep as they did this evening. and hurt they did.
it asnt the embarrasment of everyone laughing when she said it, it was the fact that for the first time in as long as i can remember, i felt like less of a person. my sef esteem flew right of the window and i couldnt even come up with any of my usual witty replies. i felt like i had been punched in the gut. i felt.......fat

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